Red Swingline

…is pretty much how I feel.  I think I have completed the 5 stages, though I reserve the right to regress at the coming Wake and Funeral service.

Among the hardest things in all of this is that he was not only such a great guy who was trying to change his life, he was SO GOOD with my children.  He loved them, really really loved them, and would do anything for them.  How the hell do we recover knowing that?

The wife is not as far along as I.  She’s still trying to sort it out.

It is of some conciliation that it was quick, and almost certain that he felt no pain and had no idea.  In seeing the car today, and in speaking with the first rescuer on the scene, it is clear that there was no suffering, no fear.

We took a baseball bat with us (Brother-in-Law Jimmy and Jeffrey’s friend Carmack came along) to get his belongings from the car and to sign it over for junking (there is nothing of value left, nothing to part out.).  We are a little proud that it looks worse then when we got there.

I’m still angry, and suppose I will be for a while.

So

For everyone who loves you – Please take the extra 5 seconds, or however long it takes, and STOP at an intersection and LOOK before you proceed.

5 seconds.

5 seconds.

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